Seriously guys after reading everything you guys said. It clears all my doubt and I felt so my better. I definitely feel that I am under psychological issue and a doctor did told me before that I have symptoms of post trauma or something along that line.
But right now I feel so much better. Thanks guys
Especially the so call "boss" I don't know who you are and why they call you "boss" but I appreciate it.
Also DrTan thanks for the clarification. It felt so much better to get the answer like this.
Cheers!