[Stupiost]

I got attracted to this man and we started to go out and then he told me he's married. I got emotionally involved (typical stupid girl). I wasn't out for the money, but like all other girls, indulge in the feel of being pampered. He's not stingy or what. He def don't make little money. I was stupid to not let him spend too much money and in the end I pampered him to not spend instead. He's getting free fu**. I'm starting to feel I'm worse than a mistress, worse than a prostitute. Even those two group of people get more benefits than I do. Since he's married I also deal with not being the first for anything. I feel emotionally shitty and sad all the time. Thoughts?