Thank you, ChaYen, for your very inspirational reply. To your credit, you weren't playing the devil's advocate; you were playing the angel.
I appreciate both sides of the argument and your post is a breath of fresh air. Not that I deliberately go looking around for positive things people want to say about my situation, but an alternative viewpoint is always welcome. Thank you.
Truth be told, I'm a total newbie to exploring "extraordinary relationships" such as this. My previous girlfriends (there were 3 serious ones) were all Singaporeans, and I've never had to deal with Thai culture the way I had to because I've never been given the opportunity to be exposed to it - my work brings me to Malaysia, Australia and China but never Bangkok. The first time I was there, I was brought by a friend in a bid to "introduce" me to what Bangkok really had to offer. I've been dragged to Nana, Cowboy, Patpong and the like (even tried my hand in a MP after much persuasion) but never really enjoyed the whole pay-for-pussy experience. Yes, I'm an extremely sensitive man. I enjoy having sex, but only the entire experience that comes along with it (cuddling, talking, little kisses). Call me a faggot - I don't think I care. Paying for sex doesn't appeal to me personally (absolutely no disrespect to forum members who swear by it, though. It's all a question of personal preference), so the whole G-club exposure opened my eyes up to a brand new world. I wasn't looking for pussy - in fact, I wasn't even expecting a good time. The idea of drinking whiskey in a large group while some random girl has a hand up your thigh while playing lame dice games just didn't appeal to me all that much. Until I met her. Since then I've gone back to Bangkok twice just to see her.
I know I'm rushing it, but people under the influence of infactuation (as opposed to being "under the influence of alcohol", geddit..) do silly things. I know she's asking me to cool it. I don't know why I'm in such a hurry. Maybe because I'm already 32 and not getting any younger? I've been disappointed with Singapore women time and again to the point of giving up. I guess this Thai lady offered me a very different perspective.
Reading your post makes me ashamed of myself. I'm trying Western influences on her, a traditional Thai girl, and I might well have scared her out of her wits. I still think about her a lot, but I just can't get over the fact that she works in a G-club. Sometimes I trust her, and sometimes I don't. I'm a royally confused person.