Hi bro Megatronzombie,
So how are u coping with ur current marriage life? Are you happy with your current status?
If given another chance at MBS that night, would you have Say to AngelaRosa Bb,"I love u, pls Marry me." instead?
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Originally Posted by Megatronzombie
TS you are actually not asking for advice when you post this thread arent you? You are just seeking an avenue to vent your inner frustration which you are afraid to show bcoz to do so would prove something is seriously wrong with the relationship and you have been wrong all along to continue this fuckfest with a guy who just see you as a fuck toy. Its your subconsciousness that made you make this thread in the guise of seeking advice but in actual fact you just want to feel better from your shitty situation. Upfront you want to see if there are advice that might give you a way out but deep in your mind you are exploring your own desires and objectives. You were brought up among a family and friends that have at least some values and this is clashing with your need for attention and enjoyment. This turmoil is whats happening right now. You laugh off some of the more candid comments here because you are afraid of getting hurt and lost your happy go lucky attitude.
At this point i should apologise because im a candid person and i hope you are convinced im one. I need you to be convinced coz otherwise you won't believe what im going to say next. Im sorry but its necessary.
Now, i wanna tell you a story. I married into a marriage whereby i came to understand my wife too late. My wife is gorgeous and very friendly. But She is also a stupid girl who doesn't understand priorities and being too caring she doesn't understand she was being taken advantage of and that her husband has already given up on her for being very nice to outsidersand and shitty to those she is closest to. She rather be fucked by strangers than her husband and im saying this in a literal sense. And she doesnt loke romantic candlelight dinners, she doesnt like flowers. She prefers diamonds handbags and attention. The former two i can give her nonproblem but she seeks attention the most. So much so she is willing to be fucked by others in affairs behind her husband. She is a strict buddhist and her affairs were very conflicting to her values but since she is an attention whore she continue doing so. How i got to know all these is secondsry, doesnt have anything to do with your story. But the fact that my wife emulates you is a perfect example of a course of action that goes nowhere. Nowhere except down the path of self destruction. A frw years back after her 3rd affair i threw her out of the house literally kicked her out the gates. I didnt even let her pack. Told my maids to pack her stuff afterwards. She begged me and got her sis to beg. Her mum whom she didnt dare to tell what happened got to know about it via my sis in law and begged me too. My mum in law is a wonderful person with really good personality. I finally relented. She continues to be my wife till today. Had i not accepted her back she will have nothing (well except half of my fortune) and she will continued to be played by others. History has proven it. And history will tell you you are on a one eay road to wasting your youth. And for what? Attention?? Enjoyment!? You are better off selling yourself as a prostitute. At least you get money.
Now the other side of the story. My wife's conflicting actions have at one time drove me away. I am still the dutiful husband taking care of everything and anything in the household and taking the family out etc. But inside me onhave given up on my wife. I wanted excitement i wanted romance and great sex. I wanted my youth back. Unintentionally, i got to know a 26 yr old girl via my contacts and gatherings. She is smart, stunning (more stunning than my wife) and very outgoing. We got along real well and i treated her as a good friend. But then my selfish side rear its head. I realised this is an opportunity to live the life i wanted. Here is a girl ripe for the taking. She was by then very close to me, doesnt mind me touching her, laughs at my sex jokes, and she love to take care of me whenever we go out. She isnt a slut mind you. She is nice but behaves herself. But with me you can tell she visibly relaxes and be herself. She likes to grab my hand when she is excited and msgs me very often with notes to take care of myself and asks when are we going out next. She knows i have a wife and kids and she has said im two occassions that she doesnt mind me having a family and she think thats a good thing for a man. In short she was prepared to be a side chick. Just because of all the attention i gave her. I do spend on her but hardly any gifts just lunches dinner but i spend time with her which she cherished alot. See thw similarities here? You were her at the beginning. Now let me continue with my story. Let me tell you my perspective aka your daddy's (minus the sugar) perspective. I have thought things through very well. Here is a girl who don't mind going the next step and letting me fuck her and use her. She is smart and as such has thought through the pros and cons and still wish to continue with it and that tells me she will not act in a irrational or selfish manner. My marriage which i will not leave is safe and i will have ample time to monitor her if she turn jealous or irrational. She doesn't demand much gifts which tells me shenisnt in it for my money and that means i can keep her as long as i give her attention. She has a body thats slim tall with b cup, not big but just the right size inlike. But its her face that knocks guys off their feet. She look like a cross between angelababy and rosamind kwan and she is young, i was 10yrs older. Just right. For a fucktoy. Nothing else but a fucktoy. All i need is to feed her emotional needs. Perfect.
You get my drift now? I dont need to say more.
Im not defending myself coz i know i have turned into a bastard. Sometimes my work does that to me too or i wont survive. But you know what happened after one night when we were walking next to MBS? It was late at night no more joggers and we avoided the bars. I turned to her and told her i wanted to tell her something. It was like in the movies, she looked so very expectantly at me. And i took her shoulders and kissed her on the forehead. I told her she i love her and shenis like a sister to me. She stared at me and surprise was written all over her face. I forgot to mention that i was touchy to her too and she is very likely to get the message i was interested in her. So this caught her by surprise. I remembered i licked my lips with half my mind wanting to change my mind and fuck her brains out and feed my sexual need that has been building for so long that very night probanly book a room at mbs since its so damn near. But i didnt. Afte a while tears welled up in her eyes and i saw the most radiant smile i ever saw on her. She said "thank you" and said she doesnt feel so well. Must be the food. She would like to go home and she said its ok i dont need to fetch her back. On impulse i took her hand and told her "i know your feelings but i want the best for you." Likeni said, she is smart and she appreciated that. We didnt meet each other for a week plus. She took urgent leave and went holiday. When she was back she asked to meet up and gave me a present from her holidays. We talked like old friends minus the sexual tension. We laugh and joke. It eas never the same again, no more touchy feely no more eyes staring at eavh other. But it was so much better now. She is my true friend and there were no longer hidden agendas no longer intentions that gnaws at our values and principles. It was as good as it gets. Later after a few years she met a really nice guy who became her bf to this day and i always cheer her on to take the next step. Time will tell what comes next but i think God i did the right thing.
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