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Originally Posted by alkz
........I guess the only thing that he will be afraid off is when u decided to blow up the matter. ....... I knows he is not afraid becos he knows what kind of character u r......
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Fuck yes. He did say he knows I won't. And I really won't. Why also jeopardise myself. Actually I think I know why I feel shitty. Although I was happy to affair with him, I think I'm just quite jealous he has his shit together, his job, wife and all. And he GETS to eat his cake and have it. I like him, we enjoy time together, but I want more. I want to see him make effort to see me. At least I'm more appreciated.
"but having said go, she wont be able to walk out so easily becoz she is too involved" - YES, you see why I can't walk out easy. Uhh please don't F me, but actually I am quite determined to 'play' becos it's still enjoyable.. but you also know I want to stay. OK I'm a loser, I am those shitty players who wanna play the game even though they will lose.